Chapter 234
Episode 234:
Ellis comes inside.
In her hands was a wooden tray.
On the tray was a bowl filled with yellow porridge, a spoon, and a glass filled with water.
“….”
When she came inside and saw me, she moved without saying a word.
He reflexively sat up, came closer to me, and set down the tray next to me.
She stood in front of me. I feel a strange feeling.
worry sadness anger.
And a feeling of betrayal. She felt deeply betrayed.
He felt betrayed that he had left him alone in a safe place and rushed into danger.
She asked me to do it.
He said that when he goes to a dangerous place, he wants to go with him.
I couldn’t ignore it and locked her in a safe place.
Yes, if that were all it was, the sense of betrayal she would have felt would have been great.
When I returned from the war, I was in a near-dead state.
He was carried in the arms of a soldier without even being able to open his eyes, even though he would never return safely.
What did she feel at that time?
Even though I couldn’t feel it, I knew it wouldn’t be a very good feeling.
“Ellis.”
“….”
There is no answer.
I can feel her breathing, so I know she’s right in front of me.
But why is there nothing said?
She turns around to look down at me.
And then I tried to go out the door.
“Are you going to keep going?”
“….”
He doesn’t stop walking.
It seemed like she was really going to leave like that, so I racked my brain to figure out what I could say to make her stop.
“I can’t see.”
“…!”
Standing tall – she stops.
I felt like my body was shaking and reacting violently.
“No kidding.”
Her voice trembles.
Joke She hoped what I was saying was just a joke.
I hope he said it to stop himself.
“It’s no joke.”
“You recognized me.”
“Because I can’t forget your smell.”
Should I have said scent?
I guess it was a bit harsh to say it smelled even though she was a woman. Since the words have already been spoken, they cannot be taken back.
Fortunately, though, she didn’t complain further, as if that wasn’t just the wrong answer.
He spoke in a slightly trembling, worried voice.
“Are you sure you can’t see? “You’re not kidding, are you?”
“I’m not the type of person to mess around with things like this.”
“…who the hell are you…!”
She chews her lips.
At this point, you probably know that I’m telling the truth and I’m not lying.
To begin with, I don’t even know if my eyes are open or closed right now.
From her perspective, it would appear that I keep my eyes open or closed.
Because there is no feeling in the eyes, it is difficult to close or open them.
Because it seems to be the opposite.
“Then what should I do? If you can’t see, it will be inconvenient for you to live in the future, so you should at least call the Count… No. A request to His Majesty Seonghwang….”
“Now wait a minute. “Elise, calm down.”
“How can I calm down now!”
She screams out loud.
Maybe there was an error in my senses, but it seemed like there were tears in her eyes.
She gets angry as she glares at me.
Why on earth would a person like you do that?
Are we only thinking about ourselves? What on earth are we?
What do you want to achieve by using your body like that?
She poured out her anger on me for a long time, as if the doom that had been blocked for so long was bursting out.
Since she rarely does this, I can’t help but listen to her, even though I’m embarrassed.
“…Phew….”
She exhales loudly.
For 30 minutes, she yelled and argued with me non-stop.
He even cried, begging for help.
Her voice was hoarse, as if she felt refreshed after pouring it out for a while, but she looked much better.
“Are you calming down now?”
“…yes.”
She nods.
I fumbled with my hands and moved the chair next to the bed so that it was in front of me.
Then he reached out to her, grabbed her wrist, and made her sit on the chair.
She moved obediently into my hand.
“First of all… I’m sorry.”
I knew she was dissatisfied.
She was angry with me in the Elf Forest and before that.
I asked him to please not do that.
And I never once listened to it.
To be honest, I only looked ahead and ran.
I wasn’t in a position to care about my surroundings.
It was difficult to look around when myself was important right now.
So her dissatisfaction, her sadness, and her emotions themselves were ignored.
No, it wasn’t just her.
To everyone who followed me, I was a similar guy.
What did I think of them?
Now that I see it, I think I was simply seeing them as words, as tools that I had to use to protect myself.
They are also a person and have thoughts, but it was like ignoring their thoughts as a person.
“I know what your complaints are. “I know you’re angry, and I know what you want to say to me.”
“Then…”
“But that doesn’t mean I will listen to you. I can’t guarantee that your request will resolve your complaint. I don’t think I’ll listen to anything you or anyone else says to me. “Even the king or the emperor of that mighty empire won’t be able to stop me.”
“Master….”
“Not even God can stop me.”
Look up at the sky.
I wish I could face the man who sent me here, God.
If that’s the case, I’d like to at least get punched in the face.
If they had sent me here, all they would have done was send me a message without showing my face once, but now they don’t even do that.
Honestly, I don’t have that many complaints.
Rather, it was inconvenient and inconvenient when the message appeared.
It’s better not to worry about it because it doesn’t look like it does now.
“Why on earth… Master, are you doing that for? “You can rest just a little bit.”
I shook my head.
Of course, that doesn’t mean I don’t think about it.
In fact, I trained in the beginning, but I didn’t live as rigorously as I do now.
When I rested, I rested. When I moved, I moved.
But that’s not the case now.
As it was, it was so busy and difficult that nothing seemed to be okay.
It didn’t stop.
They say the scariest thing is a car that lost its brakes.
That’s exactly who I am now.
While I was pressing the accelerator fully, I couldn’t press the brakes and ended up tearing it up.
If there is a wall in front of you, you might not be able to stop or turn properly, causing an accident.
‘And that accident happened this time.’
Becoming helpless right away and losing your eyesight for an instant.
And there were a few more, but those need to be figured out more accurately.
‘Still, I gained something.’
I have power.
Even though it was only half-power, power was power.
No matter how few Auror users there were, if you look at the continent as a whole, there were quite a few top-level experts.
And they wanted to overcome the wall, but were unable to become masters because they could not attain enlightenment.
If I had to say that, seeing the Master once would be like using up all my life’s luck.
That level of power and enlightenment was difficult to obtain.
‘But I didn’t have any enlightenment… To be honest, I don’t really remember what happened then.’
I simply wanted to break free from the chains that bound my existence.
At some point, those thoughts disappeared, I entered a trance, and power arose.
Although they say that enlightenment is a phantom that comes like the wind and disappears if you don’t catch it, in my case, I was quite lucky.
I told you all about fighting alongside the masters and engaging in direct combat with them.
It was like monopolizing an opportunity that others would not be able to obtain even if they spent their entire lives.
“young master?”
“Oh, sorry… I have something to think about for a moment.”
“no.”
I thought very differently about people.
I shook my head to shake off my thoughts.
She still looks at me with concern.
‘I think I’ll see it soon.’
The darkness was lifting, very little by little.
It feels like a light the size of a fingernail has been spread widely in the pitch-black darkness.
“It seems difficult right now. “I haven’t achieved my goal yet.”
“What is that goal? “For what on earth…”
“I’m sorry I can’t tell you right now. “I’ll let you know when the time comes.”
How can I say this?
A being called Ahar is trying to exterminate humanity.
And how can I explain how I found out about it?
To explain it all, I have to start by explaining who I am.
She would have doubts in the first place.
The path I have walked so far has been a series of situations that no one can explain and that are difficult for one person to experience.
Obtaining a wild dog, solving the elves’ worries, and ending the war.
Yes, even with wild dogs, war is not impossible since there are two masters.
But, leaving everything else behind, it is difficult for anyone to believe that I cured the World Tree, the guardian tree of the elves.
To begin with, elves tend to be closed-minded, so their information cannot get out.
Moreover, I had no connection to the South.
This was my first time coming to the South without any means of contact.
But I solved it as if I knew everything very well.
A situation that would make anyone question something.
“…All right.”
But Ellis didn’t ask any more questions.
He held my hand tightly, saying that he would believe me when I said that he would explain it to me someday.
I could only say thank you to her.
thanks.
It’s just a word, but I’m so thankful that people believe me just because I asked them to believe me.
“Then you should rest. “You’re not feeling well.”
She says, returning to her normal voice.
I nodded and she took the tray next to me into her arms.
Then he picks up the plate and scoops up the porridge with a spoon and offers it to me.
“Eating well is also important when recovering. “Ah, do it.”
I felt a little embarrassed by her behavior.
I could eat enough food on my own, but she was acting like she was feeding a child.
“I can eat it.”
“How can you do that when you can’t see? “Just accept it and don’t say anything for now.”
“I…”
“Oh, do it.”
At her firm words, I let out a light sigh and opened my mouth.
No matter what I said, it didn’t seem like her will would break, and since I had done something wrong, it was even harder to refuse what she said.
She must have liked the sight of me obediently eating it, saying ‘I like it’ and continuing to pour out the porridge.
And whenever he got it on his mouth, he took a handkerchief and wiped it away before I could do anything.
It’s comfortable, but it feels strange.
For a while, the only sounds in the room were the clattering sound and the sound of porridge being swallowed.