Why Are You Becoming a Villain Again?

Chapter 35: Dream (6)

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Without Cayden, it was as if there was nothing left in the world anymore.

Asena's and Keirsey’s dormitory was quiet.

Asena stared blankly at the door while Keirsey was still kneeling on the floor.

Both were as still as statues.

This stillness seemed to represent their hearts; it was empty and cold.

There was nothing left where the storm of emotions had just passed.

“…..”

Asena went into her room in a daze.

Recently, there have been more days when the two didn’t say goodnight to each other.

It’s because the feud with Cayden got worse, and today was the worst of that.

-Thud.

After Asena closed the door, Keirsey began to feel how lonely she was.

“……”

Keirsey’s hardened eyes looked in front of her.

Of course, no one was there.

Suddenly, a sharp pain swept through her heart.

“… …”

She couldn’t help but hug herself tightly in hopes of soothing it. Of course, nothing changed. Cayden’s words still hurt her heart.

She couldn’t believe it was her actions that had brought it all together.

She didn’t know that the words she thought he wouldn’t know would bite her like this.

She regretted it. She regretted saying those words a lot, but in vain.

Without him, even her body felt colder. Maybe it was because his presence alone made her heart warm. It was an unbearable cold.

Keirsey took the handkerchief that Cayden had left behind and headed to her room.

And when she closed the door, tears began to flow down again.

With tear stained red nose, she lay down on the bed, took off her clothes, and placed her head on the pillow.

Holding Cayden’s handkerchief tightly, she wept aloud.

She still couldn’t believe that he was leaving her.

They’ve been together all their lives. But she wasn't satisfied; she thought they would be together for the rest of their lives. But the end of the time they could spend together was already approaching.

Suddenly, she imagined life without him.

There would only be cold left in her room.

She would have no shoulder to lean on when she was depressed.

And when she was happy, there would be no one to share it with.

“…Oppa…No…! Sob…!”

It wasn’t until after he said he was leaving that she realized how dependent she had been on her brother.

He was as important as air, perhaps even more.

Her heart was hurting enough that she felt she was going to die.

She was tormented in her bed for a long time. No matter how much she screamed, no matter how many tears she shed, this pain did not go away. Because the reality didn’t change.

Crying like that, she couldn’t help but fall asleep, with Cayden's handkerchief still clenched in her hand.

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.

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Keirsey had a dream.

It was a long time ago:

Keirsey was crying even in her dream. When she was young, she was still struggling with helplessness, loneliness, and fear.

She was gradually recovering as Cayden appeared, but Keirsey burst into tears whenever she felt the vacancy of her parents.

In the meantime, she didn’t want Asena to worry, so she slipped into a place known only to herself in the Pryster Castle, and wept.

“…Mom…Sob…Dad…”

In her dream she was weak. She wasn’t a Pryster at all like her father or grandmother. She felt like a fool for not being able to maintain the solemnity of Prysters.

“Hey, were you here?”

At that moment, she was startled by the voice she heard.

It was Cayden.

It’s been a while since she accepted him as an older brother, but she didn’t want him to see her like this yet. Even at a young age, they knew how hard Cayden worked for them, so it felt like she was ignoring his efforts for having to struggle again like this.

“…Ah..”

So Keirsey closed her lips and held back her tears. She wiped her eyes swiftly and turned her back to him.

She didn’t want to show her face.

“…I want to be alone for now.”

She hinted with a trembling voice.

By the way, this was a place only she knew, so she was confused about how he got there.

“Where am I going to go and leave my crying sister?”

Cayden approached with warm words.

Keirsey didn’t feel bad for some reason.

She definitely wanted to be alone, but deep down in her heart, she may have wanted someone.

Cayden came and sat next to her who was crying with her head hiding behind her knees.

Then he slowly wrapped his hands around her and took her in his arms.

“Are you still struggling? You can cry. I told you I would be your strength.”

“……Ugh…”

At those warm words, the tears that Keirsey had been holding back burst out again.

Taking his pats, Keirsey continued to weep in his arms.

And after shedding tears for a while and calming down, she even felt a sense of relief in her heart.

It was a feeling she never felt when crying alone.

When she calmed down, Cayden pulled her out of his arms.

Keirsey felt bad for some reason.

And at that moment—

-Puch

—His lips touched her forehead.

“….uh?”

Keirsey felt the warmth radiating through his entire body, entering her with her forehead.

It was like magic. She didn’t even know what he was doing.

“Why are you surprised? Now, Oppa will kiss you on behalf of your parents, so don’t be lonely.”

“….kiss?”

“Well? Have you never kissed?”

Keirsey shook her head. The mouth has always been a place to speak or eat, an organ that has never been used anywhere else.

Cayden burst out laughing.

“…that’s…however, this is a bit surprising.”

He paused as if contemplating for a while.

But Keirsey’s eyes were focused only on his lips, which conveyed that warmth.

“Um… this is something you only do to people you like.”

“People I like…?”

“I did it because Keirsey is already a family member and I like you.”

“…..”

Keirsey pondered those words for a long time.

As she was thinking so, Cayden asked cautiously.

“…Did you hate it?”

Keirsey shook her head at the question. She didn’t hate it, she just didn’t know what it felt like yet.

“I’m glad. Come on, Keirsey. Now let’s get out of here. Even our heart darkens when we are in such a gloomy place.”

Cayden took her hand and made Keirsey stand up, but Keirsey couldn’t get up. She had been sitting in the wrong position for too long, so her legs were numb and she couldn’t put any strength in them.

“..Oh..”

As she stumbled and collapsed to the floor, Cayden pondered for a moment.

“Keirsey, wait a minute.”

Then he put his arms around her back and hips and lifted her.

“Uh… huh?”

She heard that the age difference was small, but she couldn’t figure out how he was so strong.

As he moved and pulled her out of the darkness, Keirsey’s eyes stared blankly at his face.

It was nice. It was like a hero who came to save her. She was getting more and more happier that he became her brother.

But she didn’t show it. She was still shy, and he might hate her if she suddenly pretended to be close.

Keirsey felt the warmth in his arms.

And, perhaps because she was already tired because of crying, she even yawned.

Cayden saw it, smiled kindly, and took her to the room.

Several servants smiled at the sight. Even this was embarrassing for her.

Upon arriving in the room, Cayden gently laid her on the bed and stroked her hair, and said:

“…you look sleepy, so take a nap. It’s best to sleep after crying.”

“…..”

“I’ll come to wake you up in the evening. Understand? Get up, eat, and then go back to sleep.”

Saying so, Cayden turned around. Keirsey unknowingly grabbed his wrist.

“….yes?”

She didn’t want him to go. The reason was unknown.

So, after holding his wrist, she didn’t know what to say.

However, there was no need.

“…..”

Cayden looked at her, smiled once, and followed her into the bed.

Keirsey took a breath. She didn’t hate it, but she was surprised.

Cayden didn’t say anything else.

After holding her in his arms, he just lay down on the bed. He patted her back and said nothing.

With him, she felt reassured. It was a feeling she had never felt for anyone other than her parents.

…If it wasn’t for him, she might have been ruined.

She may have wandered helplessly, unable to lean on anything, and might have lived like a doll.

Holding him, she could even smell his scent.

A sweet, addictive scent.

Keirsey closed her eyes.

Her smile grew more and more.

And for the first time in months, she laughed out loud.

“….Hehe…”

His scent was so relaxing.

And then, her body got heavier and heavier. The texture of the skin became vivid, and the world, in front of her eyes, darkened.

“…Hehe.”

His scent still did not leave her.

“…?”

She smiled and calmed down.

Soon, she woke up from her dream:

Cayden was nowhere to be found, and she was alone in the room.

When she opened her eyes, in front of her face was a handkerchief with his scent flowing out.

Because of this, it was as if she had a dream in his arms.

As her mind gradually cleared, the happy feeling of her dream was reversed.

It was hard to believe that this moment was real; the circumstances outside the dream were horrendous.

And, he was about to leave.

“…Ahhh…”

Tears were about to flow again. She bit her lips and clenched her teeth, but reality did not change.

She wanted to go back into the dream again.

She wanted to go back to be held in his arms. She wanted to be locked up there for the rest of her life.

As a child, no, until a few days ago, she did not understand how precious that moment was.

It’s a future that may disappear. It’s a future that may never come again, but she didn’t appreciate that moment properly.

To enter the dream, Keirsey brought the handkerchief to her nose.

If she fell asleep smelling his scent, she will be able to dream again.

It was wet with tears and the scent was a little off, but she could still feel the traces of Cayden.

But the bitterness had cleared her mind.

She couldn’t sleep because of the pain she felt in her chest which seemed to have grown a lot.

The more it grew, the stronger Keirsey grabbed the handkerchief to go into a dream where he wouldn’t leave her to go to another family.

Where he would not leave her to go to another woman.

The moment she thought of the concept of another woman, her heart sank once again.

It was only now that she realized how much she loved him.

She had no choice but to know now how much she loved him after imagining him leaving her.

Cayden said that it was natural for him to marry another woman.

Keirsey couldn’t understand how it was natural.

One's marries the person they love the most.

She couldn’t figure out how it was natural for him to leave her and marry another woman.

No matter how much he said he would leave, it didn’t change her conviction that she was his favorite woman. Not even Asena, he loved her the most.

Because even the time they were together was the longest. When Asena was busy because of her duties as a duchess, it was she who spent the most time with him.

Therefore, she felt betrayed that he was thinking of marrying another woman.

“…..”

'No, am I weird?'

'As siblings, was this normal?'

'No matter how much we love each other, aren't we siblings?'

"..."

'But if it's Oppa, it should be fine.'

No matter how much she thought about it, Keirsey knew it too.

Normal siblings don’t get married. Just because they thought they weren’t in a normal relationship, they couldn't just turn their eyes away.

And gradually, when she realized that Cayden and herself weren’t that different from normal siblings, her heart fluttered.

She smelled his handkerchief, one hand naturally pointing downwards.

Careful, but without stopping, a hand went between her legs.

She didn’t even know why she was doing this now.

Was it because of his scent that filled her nose? Was it because she had now confirmed her love for him? Was it because she had a dream that she was lying in bed with him? Was it because she was jealous of the fact that he was going to another woman? Or maybe it was because she wanted to feel what s*x would feel like after she got married to him.

The body acted impulsively.

According to the s*x education class, his p*nis was approaching.

Keirsey touched her pu*sy. But she didn’t feel anything other than a kind of soft feeling.

“.. Ha... Ha ..”

After inhaling the scent of the handkerchief, Keirsey imagined Cayden in her head.

She thought that the finger that was touching her right now was his.

“…Ugh…!”

And at that moment, as if an electric current passed through, her body trembled.

The pu*sy, which had never felt anything, became as sensitive as if it was her biggest weakness.

Her soft pus*y gradually got wet, and she began to feel strange. But still, it didn’t feel wrong. Rather, it just made her want to think of him more vividly.

Unfortunately, she couldn’t even think of what he was saying in that situation.

So Keirsey only imagined Cayden calling her name.

“…Keirsey… Keirsey...”

In reply to his words, she touched her pu*sy.

At first, she was just clumsily rubbing her hand against her pu*sy, but gradually she began to learn the trick.

She felt the best when she put her finger through the tight gap.

In particular, when she thought that it was Cayden’s gen*tals that pierced her pus*sy, all the depression in her heart was blown away, and it was filled with only joy.

Being married to him would be like this. It was an insanely happy feeling.

It was said that sexual activity was something that could only be done with a person who one was in a relationship with or one's spouse. It was also a symbol of purity.

Keirsey suddenly thought that it would be Cayden who would take her innocence.

She didn’t know why, but she felt a sense of immorality in that imagination.

Keirsey had never thought of a marriage partner, but when she tried to think about it, there was only Cayden.

But she knew that it was not common for siblings to marry.

So, the fact that her brother, Cayden would take her virginity was wrong, but it felt so right.

Perhaps, the fact that she was defiling herself while imagining him doing the act, was the cause of this feeling of immorality.

– Spluch… Spluch… Spluch…

Every time her fingers went in and out of her pu*sy, no, the more she thought of Cayden touching her pus*y, the pleasure began to double, then triple...

She thought of his smile. She thought of him stroking her hair. She recalled the feeling of his lips kissing her cheek and forehead and the feeling of his rough hands.

“…more…more…”

Keirsey begged Cayden in front of her. She imagined her brother’s bare body and thought about the feeling of holding each other’s bodies in close contact.

Her body was hot and sweaty, and her thighs were damp.

– Spluch! Crumple! Spluch!

Even though only the entrance was being touched, the sound of obscene love words filled the room. She was afraid the sound would leak out, but she couldn’t stop thinking that Cayden was touching her.

Because she didn’t want to stop coveting him and didn't want him to stop touching her.

“Oppa…! ah..! ah…!”

She called him and thought of him even more.

Even though she didn’t close her eyes now, she could clearly see him in front of her.

Cayden was smiling.

He said:

“I will leave, Keirsey.”

At that moment, Cayden’s figure disappeared like a mirage. The dream of being with him was shattered.

Keirsey was the only one left in the room.

There was only one woman who comforted herself on a late night when no one was there.

The hand that touched her was gone.

Keirsey’s hand did not move by itself.

Tears came out and flowed sideways.

Being alone, she was so humble and lonely that she couldn’t stand it.

She put the handkerchief in her mouth and again played with her fingers.

She had to think of him. Just like before, she could only survive if he came back.

“Oppa…! Oppa…!”

But no matter how hard she tried to think of him, Keirsey was alone.

He didn’t come back.

Rather, the anxiety in her heart showed only a strange delusion of him taking another woman’s hand, smiling and turning his back, showing a satisfied smile as he was leaving her.

“Ugh..!”

Keirsey moved her hand faster.

– Squeak! Squeak! Squish! Squeak!

Then, the waist naturally curled, and the pus*y shrunk. She had goosebumps all over her body and she was shaking.

-Pew shoot! Pyuve!

Love liquid came out and wet the quilt.

An empty pleasure enveloped her.

All the strength drained out of her body.

In a sense of weakness, the body relaxed, and the hands fell to the bed helplessly.

Tears were still flowing.

After all, by doing this, the empty chest was not filled.

It’s meaningless if he doesn’t come back.

No matter how much she imagined him and pretended to have s*x with him, it wasn’t real.

She was disappointed.

She smiled as she remembered her act just now.

This was Keirsey Pryster's real face.

She just closed her eyes.

Cayden’s words then came to her mind.

‘It’s best to sleep after crying.’

Before going to sleep, she whispered.

“……Where are you going?”

The first mas*urbation of her life ended like that.

This time, she had no dreams.

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