Chapter 138: Let's Live. As a Villain.
The rain stopped, the cold air was replaced by a warm breeze, and the stone walls of the mansion faded away, replaced by the lush greenery of a forest. The change was so sudden, so seamless, that for a moment, I stood frozen, disoriented by the shift in my surroundings. The heavy sensation of rain-soaked clothes was gone, replaced by the warmth of the sunfiltering through the canopy of trees.
Birds chirped in the distance, and the soft rustle of leaves in the breeze brought a sense of tranquility that sharply contrasted the storm I had just been standing in.
And then, I heard it—the voice.
"Thank you."
The words cut through the air like a blade, but not in the way I would have expected. It was calm, composed, even arrogant—but there was something else beneath it, something I didn't often associate with him. Vulnerability? No, perhaps not that. But a flicker of something, like a shadow of regret, hiding just below the surface.
I turned slowly, knowing what I would see, and yet, the sight still hit me harder than I had anticipated. There he stood—Draven. No, not me. Not the person I had become. This was the Draven I had long tried to distance myself from. TheDraven who had built his reputation on cold calculation, ruthless decisions, and unyielding arrogance.
He stood tall, his cloak billowing slightly in the breeze that seemed to surround him alone. His hair was slicked back in that clean, controlled way, and his eyes—sharp, calculating—met mine with a knowing gaze. It was like looking into a mirror, but one that showed a version of myself I had left behind.
And yet… there was something different. A smile. A small, almost imperceptible curve to his lips that softened the usual hardness of his expression. It was disarming, making him seem more… human.
I exhaled, carefully keeping my composure. There was no sense in reacting strongly. Not now. I knew this was coming. Somehow, I knew this conversation had always been inevitable.
"You," I said slowly, acknowledging his presence without fully addressing the strange reality of the moment. "You're still here?"
He didn't flinch or react to my tone. Instead, his smile deepened, though it remained subdued. "I never left," he said. His voice was steady, calm. "I've always been here. Whether you admit it or not, you've known that."
I nodded, acknowledging the truth in his words. He wasn't wrong. No matter how far I had tried to distance myself from the man I used to be, he had always been a part of me, lurking in the background. Watching. Waiting.
"You don't need to say anything," he continued, his tone casual but weighted with meaning. "I know what you're thinking. You've been through it all, haven't you? The confusion, the bitterness, the endless struggle to understand why."
I took a breath, steadying my thoughts. "I understand now," I admitted, my voice level. "I see why you became who you are. The pain, the loss, the crushing weight of disappointment. I see it all."
He nodded slowly, his expression remaining unchanged, as if he had expected my answer. "It's a cruel thing, isn't it?Fate," he said, almost thoughtfully. "It takes everything from you, and no matter how much you fight, how much you claw your way forward, it gives nothing back." .net
I considered his words for a moment. Yes, it was cruel. I had felt it, seen it tear away everything I once valued. And yet, despite all of that, I had tried to resist the path he had taken.
"I didn't want to accept it," I said quietly, still maintaining my composure. "I didn't want to believe that this was the only way. But you… you embraced it."
He met my gaze directly, his eyes sharp but not unkind. "I did what I had to do. It wasn't about choosing what was right or wrong. It was about survival. And you know that as well as I do."
I smiled bitterly, shaking my head slightly. "Survival? Is that what you call it? You destroyed everything. Sophie, your father, even yourself. You threw it all away for what?
Power? Control?"
His smile faded, and for the first time, I saw a flicker of something deeper in his eyes. Regret, perhaps? Pain? It was hard to say. But the moment passed quickly, and his calm composure returned.
"You're wrong," he said quietly, his voice steady but filled with a weight I hadn't expected. "It was never about power or control. It was about fear."
The word hung in the air between us, and for a moment, I wasn't sure I had heard him correctly. Fear? Draven, the man who had once been untouchable, the man who had commanded respect and fear in equal measure, was afraid?
"You're surprised," he observed, his tone unchanged. "But you shouldn't be. Fear drives everyone, whether they admit it or not."
I frowned, processing what he was saying. "Fear of what?"
He sighed, turning his gaze away from me for the first time, as if the weight of the admission was too much even for him. "Of losing everything. My potential, my reputation, Sophie… all of it. And the more I lost, the more I clung to what little I had left. But the tighter I held on, the more it all slipped through my fingers."
His words struck a chord in me. The image of Sophie, standing in the rain, offering me that simple question—"Why suffer in silence?"—flashed through my mind. She had seen the pain I had tried to hide, and she had offered me a lifeline. But I had pushed her away. Just as he had.
"So, you pushed everyone away," I said quietly. "You chose to suffer alone."
He nodded slowly, his gaze returning to mine. "Yes. And that's why you can't do the same."
I raised an eyebrow, surprised by his directness. "What do you mean?"
He took a step closer, his expression unyielding but not unkind. "You can't make the same mistakes I did," he said, his voice calm but firm. "I know what you're trying to do. You're trying to distance yourself, trying to separate yourself from what I was. But you can't. You and I—we're the same."
I held his gaze, my mind racing. He was right, of course. No matter how hard I tried to convince myself otherwise, I couldn't escape the fact that I was still Draven, still carrying the same burdens he had once carried.
But then, he said something that made me pause.
"The only difference," he continued, "is that you still have a chance. You can still choose."
The weight of his words settled over me like a heavy blanket. Could I? Could I truly choose a different path? Or was it already too late for me, just as it had been for him?
Draven seemed to sense my hesitation, because he stepped even closer, his tone softening. "You're stronger than I ever was," he said, his voice steady. "I know you are. You've already made it further than I did. But you have to stop trying to carry the weight of everything on your own."
I exhaled slowly, my mind racing through the memories, the decisions, the burdens I had tried to shoulder. He was right about that too. I had always tried to carry it all myself, believing that if I just held on tightly enough, I could control everything. But control had always been an illusion, hadn't it?
"You're not alone," Draven said, his voice cutting through the fog of doubt in my mind. "You have people who care about you. People who want to help you, if you'll let them."
Sophie. Her face flashed before my eyes again, and I realized just how much she had tried to do for me. Even when I hadn't deserved it, she had been there. She had cared.
And then, as quickly as he had appeared, Draven began to fade. The smile returned to his face, softer this time, more genuine.
"You're going to be alright," he said, his voice growing fainter. "Just remember—there's always a choice."
For a moment, his words washed over me, tempting me to embrace the notion. A part of me—perhaps a larger part than I cared to admit—wanted to believe him. I wanted to believe that this could be it, that I could just step away, abandon the weight of everything I had built and become, and somehow find a new path.
One that didn't involve coldness or ruthlessness, one where I wasn't trapped in the cycle of loss and struggle.
The softness in his voice, the calmness, it tugged at something deep within me. The idea that I could let go of all of this, all the pain, the burdens… It was seductive, like a glimpse of light at the end of a dark tunnel. A path to freedom, to relief. I could feel myself inching toward it, my mind grasping at the hope that maybe—just maybe—there was another way.
But then, something shifted.
I stopped, holding myself in place, the weight of the moment pressing down on me. No, I thought. It can't be that easy. I can't let myself believe that this is all it takes. There was something off—something in his words that felt too simple, too clean. The world wasn't clean, and the choices ahead of me were never going to be simple.
My eyes refocused, my heart hardening again. I could feel my determination rekindling, flickering to life like a flame catching the wind. The flicker became a fire, and with it, a surge of clarity. I looked up at him, the fading version of Draven before me, and for the first time in what felt like forever, I truly saw him.
"No," I said, my voice firm. "I can't."
The figure of Draven before me blinked, his expression faltering, a flicker of surprise crossing his face. His eyes widened, just enough to reveal that maybe he hadn't expected this. He tilted his head, waiting for me to continue.
"I can't just walk away," I said, my voice growing stronger with each word. "I know what you're trying to say—that there's always a choice. That I don't have to be you. But this world…" I paused, my thoughts crystalizing. "This world is already going in the wrong direction. Everything is.
And if I just step aside, if I stop now, it won't be just my future that's destroyed. It'll be everyone's."
Draven's form flickered for a moment, and then… he smiled. Wider than before, but not in mockery. No, this time, it was a smile of understanding, of acknowledgment.
"Ah," he said softly, his voice steady. "So, you've made your choice."
I nodded, feeling a sense of resolve settle deep within me. "This path… it's not about fear anymore. It's not about clinging to power or control. It's about doing what needs to be done. For the world. For those who still have something to live for."
His smile grew, transforming from a simple expression into something that seemed almost… proud. There was no malice in his eyes, no trace of the arrogance or coldness I had once associated with him. Instead, there was something deeper. Something that felt… human.
"Well then," Draven said, his voice taking on a new energy, a quiet excitement. "Do it. Struggle. Fight for what you believe in. Push yourself to the edge. But remember…" He stepped forward, his form flickering like a shadow caught between light and darkness.
"This time, you're not doing it for fear. You're doing it for the world. For the others."
There was a shift in the air, a ripple of something unspoken passing between us. I could feel it—this was a pivotal moment, one that would define not just who I was, but what I would become. My path wasn't one of redemption, or salvation. It wasn't about being a hero, or even trying to fix everything.
No, it was about surviving in a world that was breaking, a world that needed something—someone—willing to take on the darkness without flinching. Someone who could bear the burden of what needed to be done, without being crushed by it.
And I could feel it now, the weight of it settling into my bones. The world needed a villain.
Draven—no, he—nodded slowly, as though reading my thoughts. "Then let's struggle," he said, his voice low, but filled with a fierce determination. "Let's fight. Let's endure. And let's live, no matter what comes our way."
I could feel a strange sense of unity in those words. The original Draven—the one I had tried so hard to distance myself from—wasn't so different after all. His choices had been born of fear, yes, but at the heart of it, he had been trying to survive in a world that kept pushing him down. And now, I was facing that same world. But my fight wasn't driven by fear—it was driven by something larger.
"Let's live," I echoed, feeling the weight of those words settle into me.
He smiled, broader this time, almost with a hint of pride. "As a villain," he said softly, before his form began to fadecompletely, dissolving into the air like mist in the morning light. "As a villain who fights for the world, even if no one will ever understand."