Chapter 46 - 46: Trust His Judgment
Chapter 46: Trust His Judgment
Translator: 549690339
Xiao Qian fainted.
This is a sign of aggravated Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder. Yu Minglang immediately started the car to take her to the hospital, but within 3 minutes, Xiao Qian woke up.
“Don’t go to the hospital… Take me somewhere, I want to wash my hands.”
Her body functions were fine, this was a psychological problem.
“No, you must get checked!”
“1 know my situation, find a water source, quick!” She was feeling so distressed, words couldn’t describe it.
Yu Minglang didn’t dare to wait, and luckily there was a 24-hour porridge house on the roadside. He brought her in, and Xiao Qian headed straight to the restroom with Yu Minglang following her. He saw her turn on the faucet and repeatedly washed her hands.
She cried while washing her hands, worse than when she fed the cat.
A waiter followed them and saw someone wasting water that way. He wanted to say something, but Yu Minglang took out a hundred-dollar bill from his pocket, handed it to the waiter, and made a leave gesture.
Yu Minglang had not received any professional psychologist training, but at that moment, he instinctively made the right decision.
When OCD attacks, family members should not stop the patients or give them any pressure; just wait silently with gentle company.
At this moment, Xiao Qian had no idea what she was doing. Her tears and thoughts were filled with scenes of her past life with her daughter.
She didn’t even realize she was crying, and guessed she must look horrible now. She had treated many OCD patients and knew how twisted they looked during an episode.
But Xiao Qian didn’t know that her vulnerability at this moment, to Yu Minglang’s eyes, felt like her heart had been torn apart.
Why was she crying so brokenly, and why was there a divergence between her behavior and her consciousness? Why was she so helpless? What had she encountered?
Yu Minglang believed in his judgment of Xiao Qian. This girl had a very strong psychological quality. From the things she had done like tearing apart Xiao San, punishing the arsonist without losing face against her uncle, nothing could scare her.
But she suddenly became so sad from something that was said. No, her current state was more than sadness, she seemed to be trapped in a predicament and unable to pull herself out.
He wanted to give her strength, to help her through this difficult moment, but Yu Minglang didn’t know how to help or where to start.
Right now, Xiao Qian was immersed in an abyss that no one but her could reach.
Finally, Xiao Qian finished washing her hands; they had wrinkled from the water. When she looked up, her eyes had lost their fragility and showed coldness instead.
“Let’s go.” She didn’t look at Yu Minglang and walked straight outside.
Yu Minglang followed, both silent along the way.
Finally, Xiao Qian spoke, “Did I scare you?”
“No, I’m just… a little worried.” Not a little, he was extremely, extremely worried.
“As you saw, I have Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder. Although I am not mentally ill, 1 will be soon if this continues. I can’t control myself when I want to wash my hands. You know who 1 am now; stay away from me later.” “Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder?” Yu Minglang had not encountered this term before, but he didn’t like it when Xiao Qian called herself mentally ill.
“OCD is a manifestation of neurosis, characterized by compulsive actions and obsessive thoughts. If 1 continue like this, 1’11 develop into obsessive ideas, causing a generalized compulsion. Yu Minglang, there’s no saving me. Don’t you know that?”
“There must be a way to save you. Trust me.” Yu Minglang quickly filtered through possible solutions in his mind. Since he saw her, he couldn’t let her continue like this.
“Trust you? I can’t even completely trust myself.” Xiao Qian sneered; she had completely lost hope in this world.
Yu Minglang didn’t say anything more; Xiao Qian closed her eyes. Isn’t this outcome good? She must have frightened him just now. There would be no more connection between them. He would know she was sick and avoid her from now on.
Tearing open the wound and showing him her ugliest side was the best way to end the relationship. He shouldn’t have appeared in her life plan anyway. But why did her heart ache more after achieving her goal?
The car stopped downstairs at Xiao Qian’s home. She was about to get out, but Yu Minglang did not open the door.
“Chen Xiaoqian.”
“What do you want to say?”
“Accepting someone and believing in someone’s promise is not just sweet talk.
1 don’t like to say useless things, but I want to tell you—I will make you believe me. I will definitely cure you.”
This was the answer Yu Minglang had come up with all the way.
Xiao Qian stared at him, unable to believe what she had just heard.
“Are you blind? Didn’t you see how 1 was just now?” A normal person would have been frightened away!
“I have excellent judgment. I trust my instincts.”
“You’re nearsighted!”
“Indeed, I have slight nearsightedness, but even if a microscope can see clearly, it lacks intuitive judgment. Trust me, trust my sixth sense. You are a good girl; don’t call yourself a bad person and stop hurting yourself anymore. Seeing you like this, I will—”
Feel heartache.
He didn’t say it out loud, and Xiao Qian seemed to both understand and not dare to understand.
“I’ll figure out a way to treat your illness. You also need to have confidence in treatment. When I can’t be by your side, please remember someone still cares for you. You are not alone; you can’t continue to hurt yourself recklessly.”
When Xiao Qian looked at Yu Minglang with tears in her eyes, all he wanted to do was to wipe her tears away.
But he couldn’t do that; it would be too frivolous.
“Chen Xiaoqian, promise me that you won’t continue to hurt yourself. If you encounter any problems, come to me anytime. No matter what it is, 1 will find solutions for you. Don’t do it yourself, and don’t do anything that would hurt yourself. In my heart, you are the best girl.”
“But I’ve done wrong in many things, and a lot of them are irreversible!” For instance, she raised her daughter to death!
He liked that girl very much, and was looking forward to it! But Xiao Qian had let her die. Would Yu Minglang still treat her this way after he found out?
“I had dealt with many desperadoes in my old unit. Many people were not born bad guys; it’s just that fate had driven them to such an extent. As law enforcers and the last line of defense for the public, 1 couldn’t show too much sympathy. But 1 always believed that if there were more options, no one would willingly make mistakes. So, in my old unit, I would never shoot unless it was the last resort. You haven’t reached that point, and 1 believe in you. You know what you are doing.”
“If I still do something wrong, will you think you have misjudged me?”
“No, I have never misjudged anything. In your heart, there’s a kind-hearted girl. Before, no one could protect her from getting hurt and crying. But in the future, I want to help you protect her.”
It was a critical hit, seriously..