No Otaku with Harem System

Chapter 44: Emotional Talk, Possibly

After convincing the girls to let me go, I went out with Mikoto to start cleaning the school.

We called the rest of the group at Rika's house to tell them that we will spend a day at school to clean up most of the infected and tomorrow they will come.

I can leave them alone without worrying about any problem since on the way I left some decoys of Hamon so that the infected do not come near Rika's house or this school, plus I trust that Saeko and Chikage will keep the men at bay and troublesome women in the group.

I tried to convince Mikoto to leave things to me since she doesn't seem right, the idea of ​​shooting children is too much for her heart and this mission is affecting her.

If she knew that the infected are not undead and are actually living people that lost their rationality then Mikoto might freak out.

Sooner or later the group will know the truth of the infection so to prevent any of the women from going crazy I must establish a bond of empathy with them.

The first is Mikoto as, despite possessing excellent mental toughness, she can be quite soft when it comes to innocent people.

"Are you OK? Do you want us to rest? " - I spoke with a worried voice when I saw that Mikoto's face turned as pale as her hair.

She has killed over 50 infected children so her mental health is deteriorating, but she remains stubborn in continuing.

"I'm ... Fine ... Let's just keep going ..." - Mikoto had difficulty breathing as she staggered, to avoid running out of her bullets she has been using a steel bat that Takashi gave her so the feeling of killing innocents with her bare hands is more shocking than when using a gun.

I shook my head and dragged her to the empty music room, the music rooms have good sound insulation so it will be useful, just in case I put a layer of Ki on the door to improve sound insulation.

Although Mikoto began to learn Ki she still cannot distinguish the use of Ki to strengthen objects since she is just a beginner.

I closed the door and led Mikoto to a chair to rest.

"Heh, do you want to do something dirty here? Damn pervert "- Mikoto sneered at me as she tried to use sarcasm to hide her weakness.

What a stubborn woman, forcing herself to do something she can't bear and just because she doesn't want me to face danger alone, this silly girl is the kind of person who would happily die to protect those she loves.

I hate the martyr mentality, but I don't dislike that side of Mikoto.

"Mikoto, I want to tell you something about me, it is something very personal that I have not shared" - I spoke seriously ignoring Mikoto's confusion.

"Will you use a trick to catch women? Hmph, don't think I don't know your tricks, you damn womanizer! " Mikoto pouted, but she looked curious.

Well, I can't deny that this will be a trick to conquer, but at the same time, I'm worried that Mikoto's mind might break from stress so I'll have to divert attention from the situation.

"Mikoto, you already know that my family was murdered" - I looked at Mikoto with a solemn expression.

In these few days Mikoto and I have shared some details of our lives, she mentioned the death of her brother in a motorcycle accident, but she did not give details. I have a theory that she was involved and she has a guilt complex which is why she is so afraid of losing a loved one.

For my part, I only mentioned that my relationship with my family was not the best, but they were still my family so I want to find and confront the culprit.

"The members of my family were all idiots, my father was an idiot who only knew how to spend money without considering the needs of the family ..."

I remembered my father buying beer with the money that was for our health insurance, At that point, I had to trick a nurse into seducing her into giving my younger sister antibiotics when she contracted chickenpox. The nurse was married and I was persecuted by her husband, although the fact that she accepted the seduction of a 14-year-old boy is disturbing.

"The worst thing is that my father spent almost all of our assets on gambling so he left a huge debt that he put in my name because the idiot no longer received loans ..."

I found it ironic that the story of my identity in this world is very similar to my life in my homeworld.

The reason I do so much work despite making a considerable amount of money with the yakuza is that the debt my father put me in is more than 10 million US dollars and it would continue to grow on interest if it weren't for making a deal with Mr. Ichijo. I am grateful to him, but I am concerned that he seems to be planning something.

"Since my father did not pay his debts, the debt collectors kidnapped my mother and sister, abused them, and then murdered them, then they killed my father. Somehow I was the only one who survived since he was in another city working as a delivery man ... "

This is something that almost happens in my homeworld and I could hardly help myself. To escape the debt collectors we escaped to Japan since my mother's family lives here.

Although they weren't willing to give us money or a place to stay since they didn't like us, they still had the compassion to help us with our passports.

"In the end, I did not like my family, my father was garbage and my mother was no better since she preferred to keep that garbage instead of taking her children with her own family to keep them safe ..."

Before, my grandparents wanted to take care of my sister and me, but my father's shitty attitude and the fact that my mother always takes her side caused my maternal family to cut ties with us. As for my paternal family, they are not reliable, I do not even know if they are still alive.

"Even if I didn't like my parents, my little sister was innocent, she didn't deserve that ending ..."

My little sister is a spoiled brat who drives me crazy. Because of how beautiful and silly she, she tends to get into a myriad of problems so I had to buy her video games so that she would obediently stay home so I won't have to keep disappearing the idiots who are trying to harass her.

Regardless, she is the only member of my family that I don't completely hate, she was cute when she was a child, but she was spoiled as she grew older, although maybe it's my fault for overprotecting her.

"When I lost them, I felt empty ..." - My expression turned gloomy, Mikoto's mouth was open but he didn't know what to say.

"I found clues that the people who killed my family were related to the mafia, that's why I joined them, I wanted to gather clues" - I clenched my fist to show resentment, but quickly relaxed it as if I had let go of a load.

"But that doesn't matter anymore" - I showed a tired but kind smile. - "Now there is something more important than revenge, more important than my resentment and even more important than justice"

I walked over to Mikoto and put my hand on his head. - "Before my only purpose to live was revenge, now my purpose is to protect others" - I smiled kindly.

I feel strange talking about my problems, it is the first time I share some of my frustrations and it feels unpleasant.

"More than anything, although what I did with you and the other girls was somewhat impulsive, I don't regret it, you gave me something special, you gave me a new purpose to continue" - I kept stroking Mikoto's head while her eyes were teary. - "Now I want to protect them"

Mikoto was biting her lip to resist tears, how adorable.

"I learned that the most important thing is to move on and survive, no matter what I have to do I will move on and take care of those I love" - ​​I lifted Mikoto's chin to look into her eyes. - "If a situation is too difficult for you to bear, you can leave me the burden, I will do what you cannot because I want to protect you"

Mikoto couldn't take it anymore, she jumped up to hug me while crying. - "Damn idiot you don't have to carry everything on your own! If you say shit like that again, I'm going to hit you! " - Mikoto can be rude when she gets excited, but at least she's not a violent tsundere.

"BAKA BAKA BAKA BAKA!" - Mikoto kept sobbing while she screamed, good thing I secured the room, or the infected would have heard us.

I was hugging Mikoto while she cried and screamed, she did not stop for almost half an hour and ended with a hoarse voice.

When Mikoto stopped crying she pulled her face away from my chest and looked at me with a determined expression. All hesitation, guilt, and pain were gone from her eyes as her resolve and determination flooded her gaze which made me smile at her.

I like that stubborn look full of stubbornness, a great determination that does not fall into obsession or madness, it is something beautiful.

I envy that look as my own willpower is fueled by obsession and perhaps a bit of madness, the willpower free from the impurities generated by obsessive desires is so beautiful that it makes me want to record this moment in my memory.

Maybe I want to corrupt her, turn that resolution into an obsession that only part of me.

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What the fuck was that ?!

[Insanity (9%)> (9.5%)]

Oh shit…

It was definitely a bad idea to think about my life and let my problems out without the support of a mental health professional, maybe if I need a therapist.

Ah, whatever, then I'll hug Shizuka and Nao, they are both better than a year of therapy.

Mikoto didn't know that I almost had the urge to break her and she looked at me with those beautiful golden eyes as she displayed one of the cockiest expressions I have ever seen. - "Do not think that only you can act great, I will be stronger, so strong that I will be able to hit you every time you say stupid things about being a tragic hero who carries everything, so strong that you will not have the opportunity to risk your life! SO STRONG THAT I WON'T LOSE ANYONE I LOVE! " Mikoto screamed with such conviction that I began to suspect that she was a protagonist herself.

"I will be so strong that I will protect you ..." - Mikoto murmured so that I would not hear her, but my senses are very sharp.

She's cute when she acts like this, I almost forgot that we have to keep killing infected children.

"Come on my pretty guardian, if you want to protect me you have to train" - I smirked as I moved toward the door.

"What?! You listened?! Don't ignore me and tell me if you listened! You fucking bastard come back here !!" - Mikoto started screaming as we eliminated the infected.

At this point, Mikoto stopped caring about the childish appearance of the infected and only cared about moving on.

No matter the situation or the problems, you always have to move on.

Always ahead.

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