I’m not a Regressor

I am not a returner Episode 441

Interlude-Deal

‘This is…’

Oh Jin slowly opened his closed eyes.

A world covered in extreme darkness like a moonless night.

I can’t reach it even if I stretch out my hand, and I can’t take a step even if I struggle with my feet.

A distant feeling of helplessness weighed on my body, as if I was swimming in an endless universe.

‘Ah ugh.’

It’s not visible.

I can’t hear it.

I don’t feel it.

As if I was thrown alone into the dark night sky.

It’s extremely empty.

‘I am.’

Who was I?

I don’t remember.

I don’t even know where this place is or why I was thrown into these dark clouds.

Nothing….

‘No.’

I desperately held on to my consciousness as it sank into the dark clouds.

I chew my lip and think about why I came here.

‘To get back everything I gave up…’

okay.

Isn’t that why you came to this space without a single light?

Rumbling!

When I was floating aimlessly in the dark clouds, barely holding on to my consciousness.

With a huge roar, a tsunami of dark clouds began to shake violently.

‘That’s…’

The tsunami of dark clouds that were shaking wildly slowly split in half.

no.

The expression ‘torn apart’ is more appropriate than the expression ‘splitting’.

The black cloth was violently split in two, as if a giant cotton doll had been violently pulled with both hands.

‘There are memories I lost there.’

Oh Jin kicked his legs as hard as he could and headed toward the space created between Heukcheon and Heukcheon.

no.

To be precise, I was trying to move forward.

‘Keuuk keuk!’

My consciousness was swept away by the torrent of black clouds that had begun to split in half, and my body was pushed backwards.

It is something that mere human will cannot dare to go against.

The darkness that split from the beginning.

It’s not that Heukcheon senses his plan and resists, telling him not to approach.

Like stepping on an ant while walking down the street without realizing it.

You are pushing yourself far away with just one extremely basic and simple act of ‘moving’.

‘I have to go.’

There is only one chance.

This was the only moment when the black sky, which had become one after being mixed together, was torn in two.

Ojin sailed up the clouds of the Black River like a salmon swimming up a rapid stream.

and.

‘Ah ugh.’

A terrible pain as if tens of thousands of ants were eating your flesh alive.

A thrilling pain that made him faint weighed on him.

In less than a second, my body was torn into pieces and put back together repeatedly, as if it had been pushed into a shredder.

‘Aaaaaaa!!’

Just as he said.

It doesn’t die.

No, it is ‘but not dead’.

‘It hurts, it hurts, it hurts, it hurts, it hurts, it hurts, fuck!!!’

Every time I tried to swim against the torrent of the Black River, a maddening pain spread throughout my body.

The body made up of consciousness is broken, torn, crushed, splintered, and split endlessly.

sick.

So much so that I feel completely out of my mind.

To the point where my head feels weird.

It’s so painful.

‘I just need to endure this…?’

dog sound.

Because they have never experienced it themselves, they can say such nonsense without any hesitation.

Even if it does not lead to death, pain is real.

Pain that feels like your flesh is being crushed by a huge hammer, or pain that feels like your whole body is being cut open with a sharp blade.

It’s so vivid that you don’t even think that this is a conscious space rather than reality.

‘Why do I have to endure this pain?’

Suddenly, the sight of myself stumbling around in a torrent of black clouds felt even more pitiful.

After all, the memories you have now only last about a month after you opened your eyes.

Even most of them were filled with miserable struggles to recall memories of the past.

Such terrible memories.

Can’t I just throw it away?

Isn’t this a memory worth remembering?

‘okay.’

There is no reason to struggle to endure such pain.

Didn’t he say that himself in the video?

I will leave everything to my choice now.

‘I’m giving up.’

Every single one.

Not even a handful left.

every.

All you have to do is give up.

Then you can be free from this pain.

You can feel more comfortable if you just take a step back.

-It’s okay to stop.

Suddenly.

Ha-eun’s voice echoed in my head.

-Regaining memories. It’s okay to stop now.

Toward him who was struggling to force himself to remember his lost memories.

She said with an extremely kind smile.

Even if you forget, I remember.

So there is no need to recall the memories.

Suppressing your emotions and crushing your heart.

That’s what he said.

‘….’

One step.

Take a step forward.

The terrible pain becomes more intense.

‘Ah ugh.’

sick.

So unbearable.

So unbearable.

It’s painful.

but.

‘I am.’

Grumble!

The clouds of the black sky shook violently, as if they were struggling.

Between two black streams.

I saw something in the dark clouds that had been torn into pieces.

‘That’s it.’

Faint starlight.

Even though I am trapped in thick dark clouds.

The brightly shining starlight was revealing its presence.

‘Ah…’

As if guided by instinct, I headed toward the faintly shining starlight.

Why?

It was definitely the starlight I was seeing for the first time, but it felt familiar, as if it had been by my side my whole life.

‘Stigmata of Lyra.’

The moment Oh Jin’s fingertips stretched forward touch the stigmata.

Woooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!!!

The brilliant silver light burned brightly, illuminating the black sky.

With the feeling of warm starlight surrounding your body.

“ah.”

It flows in.

It comes to mind.

Memories that were forgotten, memories that were erased.

Each one is engraved in my mind.

“under.”

A smile escaped between my lips.

Ojin stretched out his hand toward the stigmata engraved on his left chest.

The ‘twelve’ strokes carved next to the stigmata.

’12 stars.’

I have stepped into an unexplored state that no awakened person has ever reached.

Oh Jin gently closed his eyes with a silver halo surrounding his body.

“…sister.”

Memories of Ha-eun and memories with her fill my mind.

Among them were memories that had disappeared before the final confrontation with the Heavenly Demon.

“Vega Isabella Cassia Riak.”

I remember it.

I haven’t forgotten.

“Everyone… came back.”

Even the pain that was crushing my body was erased by the swelling emotions that threatened to explode.

But it was only for a moment that I was filled with emotion.

Rumbling!

With a roar, the black sky that had been split into two began to come together again.

“Did you notice?”

Ojin frowned and raised his head.

He could see a tidal wave of black clouds rushing in as if it was going to eat him up.

‘Where should I go?’

With dark clouds coming in from all directions, I didn’t know where to go to get out of this place.

at that time.

Oooooh!

A ray of light emanated from the Lyra stigmata carved on his left chest and pointed to a certain location like a compass needle.

I knew it instinctively.

If you follow this path of starlight, you can get out of the dark sky.

“Ugh…!”

Grumble!

As he took a step, a dark cloud wrapped around his body like a snake and pulled him back strongly.

“This is it…!”

Let’s go!

Blue lightning flashed and burned the black clouds that were entangling the body.

But even for a moment.

The black clouds that rolled in again caught him.

As if you can’t get out of here.

“It’s dirty… it’s soggy!”

Step by step.

I moved forward little by little, burning away the black clouds that were entangling my body.

“haha!”

Breath rising to the tip of my chin.

My left chest, where the stigmata were engraved, felt like it was being stabbed with a knife.

‘little bit more!’

There are only ten steps left to completely escape the Heukcheon River.

Ojin gritted his teeth and focused all his attention on the Lyra stigmata.

“Kkeuch…”

One step.

The blue thunderbolt set the dark clouds on fire.

Two steps.

Dark clouds rose up to my ankles, as if I had fallen into a swamp.

Three steps.

A dark cloud climbed up my body like a snake and pulled my right arm.

Four steps.

He created a sharp blade with a thunderbolt and cut off the arm caught in the dark cloud.

Five steps.

The left arm that was swinging the blade was tied up in dark clouds.

Six steps.

He twisted his body roughly and tore off his arm from the shoulder.

“Just a little bit more…!”

Crack.

An eerie sound of bone fracture was heard from the body caught in the black clouds.

However, this is not an actual body, but a conscious body within the consciousness space.

Even if my arms are torn off, my legs are cut off, and my whole body is crushed.

Although he lost consciousness, his body was able to regenerate as long as he was hugged.

“Ah ugh. Ahhh!!!”

Seven steps.

Eight steps.

nine steps.

and.

Kurrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!

The black sky, which had been split in two, was united again.

With only one last step left, Ojin’s consciousness was completely covered by the dark clouds of the dark sky.

‘ah.’

When I looked at the dark clouds covering my whole body and let out a soft sigh.

Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!

The black flames burned fiercely, engulfing the dark clouds.

“This is…”

“Are you going to be trapped here because you can’t take that last step?”

Beyond the black flames.

Another ‘Ojin’ with the same face as himself was approaching him.

“…Heavenly Demon?”

“Why are you looking so surprised? “My Black Heaven and your Black Heaven are merged into one, so of course my consciousness is also trapped here.”

Just like he said.

Since the two dark heavens were merged into one, it was natural that his consciousness was within this space.

“You…”

Oh Jin trailed off and looked at Cheonma.

Just like himself, the Heavenly Demon had his entire body wrapped in black clouds.

no.

The expression ‘tied up’ would not be correct.

It was as if he had already become one with the black sky and was connected to his body of black clouds.

“Let’s make a deal.”

“transaction?”

“Okay, deal.”

Cheonma came closer to Ojin and continued speaking.

“If you will do me one favor, I will help you get out of here.”

An offer you can’t refuse.

Ohjin, who heard the contents of the ‘request’, had no choice but to nod his head with a low laugh.