His Devious Harbinger: How To Tame A Wicked God?

Chapter 220: Will I be the same though?

"They went into Qeshaya," Adira tells her with a grave voice. He scrutinizes her face before he adds, "Kresi isn't a human."

"Not a human?" Ari widens her eyes. "What is she then?"

"She's a goddess." Adira sighs. "Kresi is her mortal form. Perhaps, she wasn't aware of her true self either."

"A goddess?" Ari blinks her eyes, surprised. She can't imagine Kresi as a goddess. "What kind of goddess is she?"

"A primordial goddess." Adira wonders whether he should tell the truth to Ari or not. Could knowing the truth trigger her change? But she's in a mortal form. Secrets are always heavy. Some are often used against them. Ari might get tricked by Atvi if he keeps everything as a secret. Something else might happen. It's not easy to trick time. "You are also a goddess, Ari."

"What the --" Ari closes her mouth when she sees his solemn eyes. He's not joking. "Me, a goddess? Adira, that's impossible."

"No, you are one." He takes her to the bed and makes her sit down. "Listen to me carefully. I want to tell you everything." 

Ari clasps her hands together in anticipation. How could she be a goddess? If she was one, she would be immortal already. 

"Kresi is Chaos." Adira reveals to her, "You are Abyss."

"Abyss?" She purses her lips. That sounds a little 'uncool'.

"You are order and she is chaos." Adira takes a deep breath. "She took a mortal form in this world. She was Amara. After she had done her part, you came here. Back then, it was you who gave the true name to Ai." 

Adira tells her everything that he knows. "Our daughter was raised by Chaos. To remove the face of Chaos in Misaki, you decided to erase her true name. However, one can't go away after killing a god. That's why you also lost your true name that day. Misaki helped me turn back the time."

It sounds like a science fiction movie. Ari doesn't want to believe Adira. Then again, she's in a magical world. She also died once. So many things are possible. Would she leave Iravan for Ai? She would do that. She did meet Rilyah once.

If what he is saying is the truth, then Chaos raised her daughter. 

However, she's not angry at him after hearing everything. People make mistakes. He lost his memories then. How could she blame him for things? It seems that he blames himself enough. "So, Atvi helped Chaos back then?"

"She did." Adira creases her forehead. "Right now, she's hiding somewhere. I don't know where. She might come for you when she gets the chance. Atvi thinks that she's the supreme one."

"I have heard of a human having a god's complex." Ari chuckles lightly. "This is the first time when I heard that even a god can have a supreme god complex."

Adira makes a face. "You are also a goddess."

"I am a mortal right now." Ari shrugs. "Anyway, is there a way to turn me into a goddess?"

"If I turn you into an immortal, you should become a goddess." Adira smiles at her. "Are you in a hurry to become a goddess?"

Ari shakes her head. "I don't mind staying as a mortal, but you told me that there are some bad people after our daughters. I want them to be born as immortal, even if they can't be goddesses. Since Misaki had turned back time once, she might be in danger. We can't follow her back in time."

He understands what she's trying to say. If Misaki travels in time again, they won't be able to follow her and protect her. Misaki has turned back time once. Something like this may happen again. They can't trust the keeper who said that he would try to protect her. 

"Since you are also a primordial goddess, it should be possible." Adira sits beside her. 

"Let's get married. Then, I will work hard to turn you into one if you want."

"Are you going to" She gives him a side-long look. 

"It's good for our kids too." He cups her face and pecks her lips. "Furthermore, it won't take long since you have a goddess' essence in you. Until you are immortal, I won't leave the castle."

"Seriously!" She lets out an exasperated sigh. "Fine, but don't be rough, okay?"

"I won't." He licks her lips slowly, feeling warm when she responds to him. She opens her mouth to let him invade her. He releases a groan, pushing her down on the bed, pressing her below him as his tongue delves into her mouth, entwining with her tongue slowly. 

All of a sudden, he feels someone climbing on his back. Adira becomes still. It's Little Ai punching his back with his small hands. 

"Don't eat my mother!" Little Ai pulls Adira's hair. "Father, let her go."

Ari's eyes fill with mirth. When Adira glares at her, She lets out a loud laugh. 

He lets out a heavy sigh as he pulls Little Ai down from his back. "Who said that I am eating your mother?"

"Why are your mouth on her mouth?" Little Ai glowers at him. "Her face is so red because she can't breathe. If you hurt mother, I am going to hurt you."

"I like your spirit." Adira rubs Little Ai's head. "But I am not hurting your mother. I was making her body stronger."

"Really?" Little Ai looks at him doubtfully. "Then, can I also make her body stronger by kissing her mouth?"

"No!" Adira grimaces at the boy. "You can't ever do that."

"Why?" Little Ai puts his finger on his chin. "Am I not strong enough?"

"Only adults can do it." Ari chimes in, pulling Little Ai on her lap. "Little Ai, Mother and Father are going to get married today. Do you want to be a witness?"

"Mother, what does marriage mean?" Little Ai blinks his eyes. 

"It means that Father and Mother will be together forever." Ari grins at him. "Then, Little Ai could be together with us as long as he wants to."

"Really?" Little Ai coils his arms around Ari's neck. "Then, I want to see you get married soon."

"We will do it today." Ari looks at Adira who seems relieved. "Let's include Mogrok. He was there when we married for the first time."

"I will make the arrangements." Adira picks up Little Ai. "Do you want to help?"

"Yes, yes, I want to help, Father," Little Ai yells, excited.

"Alright." Adira glances at Ari. "Stay here. I will send Mogrok after a while." 

***

Ari looks at her reflection. The blue and white dress fits her nicely. It's a little loose around her belly, hiding the swell. She fixes her hair, trying them into a bun. 

"So, I went back to my original body," She mumbles to herself. "What does it mean to be a goddess?"

She wonders if marrying in this form changes anything. The relations end after a mortal dies. If she becomes immortal, it should continue forever.

"Will I be the same though?" She narrows her eyes at her reflection. "If my existence is connected to Kresi, doesn't it mean that Kresi's existence is also connected to mine?"

Adira's words have been confusing. And what does it mean to be a forsaken goddess? That sounded like a scary thing. It is one of the reasons why she suggested that they should focus on turning her into an immortal. 

There's a knock on the door. "Master?"

"Ah, Mogrok." Ari opens the door for him. Mogrok is wearing a single red ribbon around his neck. Little Ai is dressed in a black robe with his black hair combed back. Ari can't understand his fashion sense but she doesn't question it. "Is everything ready already?"

"Master, it's ready. God Noras is here too." Mogrok's eyes well up. "You look beautiful, Master."

"Mother is pretty." Little Ai hugs her legs. "I am really happy."

"Do I?" She chuckles as she pats his head. "You are going to see our wedding"

Mogrok sniffles, recalling the past. "This time, you know that you are getting married for real."

"That's true." Ari sighs. "I don't hate getting married to Adira in the ways that I did in the past. But I love that we are having a proper wedding where both of us consent to marry each other."

"Master, I heard that you are going to have daughters." Mogrok gives his arm for her to hold as they walk toward the throne room where the wedding is going to be held. The Dark Lord wants to keep a small wedding that only consists of Mogrok, Little Ai, the bride, and the groom. God Noras is an uninvited guest. "Have you thought of the names?"

"I think they have already decided their names." Ari smiles faintly. "Misaki and Misumi"

***

"Qeshaya isn't responding?" Adira frowns at him. "Why?"

"I don't know." Noras shakes his head. "Maybe it's because you are here or something has changed when the time was turned back. I need you to try summoning Qeshaya."

"I won't," Adira furrows his brows. It's strange that Qeshaya won't appear under Noras' commands. Chaos is inside. If Kresi is completely absorbed by Qeshaya, then it will be Chaos inside Qeshaya. 

Qeshaya is powerful enough to keep a primordial god imprisoned. He was inside Chaos for ten thousand years. "I want to turn Ari into an immortal once."

If the transformation from her mortal form to goddess form happen smoothly, Abyss and Ari won't be different, just like Kresi and Chaos weren't different. 

"I understand," Noras tells him. "When we release Cina from Qeshaya, he would remember everything because of the time-turn. It would be same for Chaos. But we should prepare for Chaos' release."

Adira nods. Chaos can't go unpunished for her deeds.