Chapter 106: I Am Weak (Confidence)
Chapter 106
Shen Shuangchen carried Shen Shuangyi silently along. Suddenly, he heard a voice next to his ear. It was Shen Shuangyi's voice, without any confusion, "Are you back this time to take a final look at me?"
Shen Shuangchen didn't answer, but instead started talking about something else. "You're still so weak."
Shen Shuangyi's usual sharp tongue was rendered completely powerless in front of his own twin brother. Even when mocked for being weak, he could only meekly accept it.
He was no longer the same person he used to be.
When they were young and Shen Shuangyi was called weak, he would: (Bristle angrily) (Roar furiously) Meaninglessly threaten you! (Shove) I'm not weak at all!
Now when Shen Shuangyi is called weak, he says: I am weak. (Confidently)
"Anyway, I've always been weak, aren't you used to it yet?"
Shen Shuangchen didn't say anything more. He even quickened his pace somewhat, obviously not interested in continuing this topic of conversation. He just wanted to quickly complete the task Eldest Brother had given him and move on to the next one.
Shen Shuangyi also seemed unwilling to wait for Shen Shuangchen's reply. After a moment of silence, he continued talking to himself, "You still only listen to Eldest Brother. But do you see Eldest Brother as family?"
Shen Shuangchen: ......
"You're still avoiding things."
Shen Shuangchen: ......
"Hey, Shen Shuangchen, although I've always been weaker than you, the one who helped you gain Eldest Brother's protection was me. No matter what, I can bear being called Second Brother by you, right?"
Shen Shuangchen: ......
The road to Shen Shuangyi's room wasn't long at all, yet with all of Shen Shuangyi's chattering, Shen Shuangchen somehow felt like it had been three hundred years.
When he finally dumped Shen Shuangyi onto the bed and tucked him in neatly like Eldest Brother had instructed, Shen Shuangchen turned to leave.
But Shen Shuangyi stubbornly grabbed his hand again, "I quite like this little sister, don't scare her later."
Shen Shuangchen's face was expressionless, but he was shocked inside that Second Brother, who had once told him he hated this world to death, would say something like this.
Coupled with Old Five who had clearly been very dangerous earlier but had now retracted his claws, and Old Four who seemed much stronger than before, Shen Shuangchen realized that the judgement he had made this morning contained some errors.
After he had left, some variables had appeared in this family. Without a doubt, the name of the variable was Shen Yue.
Although Shen Shuangchen quickly realized this fact, he did not ponder what he should do about it. He only needed to complete the task Eldest Brother had given him.
Don't think about anything else, just complete the task.
"I understand, Second Brother."
......
Shen Yue was in her room working on her assignment.
To tell the truth, she could hardly believe that she was actually studying now.
If this had happened two years ago, just the thought of it would have been out of the question for Shen Yue. Going to sleep would have solved everything.
After all, she was destined to go to jail anyway.
So why had she changed now?
Shen Yue had been pondering this question the past few days. Then she remembered a quote:
"When a person is very weak, if you lock yourself away, even tiny ants will terrify you. But when you go out, and meet people you want to protect, people you want to strive for, even the gods cannot make you stop."
She didn't know who had said this quote, but Shen Yue subconsciously believed it wholeheartedly.
She had even come to a conclusion while doing her assignment - her motivation for working hard was that as long as she earned enough money, she could have a good life in jail. So working backwards from this quote, there must be people in jail that she wanted to protect.
Shen Yue had actually started thinking ever since she had dreamed of jail again after that time. Why had she never thought about striving for a future where she didn't have to go to jail? Perhaps it wasn't that she was unable to change things, but that she shouldn't change things.
At the very beginning when she had first regained her memories, there were only some key fragmented scenes. These fragments pieced together what appeared to be her extremely miserable life.
A fake heiress who was abandoned. Alone in this world. Jail. Lifetime imprisonment.
She had been afraid.
From that day forth, she dreamed of Eldest Sister almost every day. She would copy Eldest Sister's words and actions from the dream when she was awake.
Then...she met the students of the special class. The dreams lessened.
After getting along well with Fourth Brother and Fifth Brother, she went a very long time without dreaming anything about jail again.
When Second Brother occasionally came home, she would even feel that everything from the past was false. Only her present was real.
After she had this thought, the dreams appeared again.
The clear details about jail in the dreams instantly made Shen Yue reject her own thinking.
It was all real.
The soft and helpless 12-year-old her could only escape when faced with such inconceivable events. But now, after another two years had passed, the 14-year-old Shen Yue chose to earn big money when faced with the same problem again.
Of the multitude of mistakes, only earning money would not be wrong.
And when Shen Yue stopped choosing to escape, she easily discovered the pattern behind the dreams. Her so-called memories were actually related to her mental state.
When she was afraid, she dreamed of Eldest Sister.
When she was elated, she dreamed of the cruel jail environment.
It seemed to be reminding her of something.
But actually, none of it mattered.
Shen Yue didn't care why she possessed these memories. She also didn't want to do anything to try to change them. She would just be herself.
Even if everything in the dreams was real, the special class, Zou Xuerong, and Jiang Shiwen were definitely different.
Yes, in summary, the current situation was like this. Guessing by herself was useless.
Things had already gotten to this point. She should just go to sleep first. After waking up, she could just keep studying questions and no one would know. Hehe.
Shen Yue had just laid down when there was suddenly a rhythmic knocking on the door - three knocks with equal force at equal intervals. It was undoubtedly Shen Shuangchen outside.