Because I Cannot Hurt You

Chapter 478 Promise me

After Xiaosi's reports were out which turned out to be normal to everyone's relief, Jack Si left them alone to talk.

Without the oxygen mask now, Xiaosi felt more free to speak. He leaned his back on the bed and let out a sigh.

There was silence for a while. Xiaosi raised his hand towards her but retracted again. When he looked back at her, he was stunned to tears streaming on her cheeks.

"Cai-Caihong…"

But his mouth was blocked by her as she captured his lips. His hand in mid-air was frozen and so was his body. He felt her lips kissing him hard with all her might. Her tears stained his cheeks, making his eyelashes tremble. His lips were bit and chomped upon as she pressed and darted her tongue across them.

Xiaosi wanted to take a sharp gasp but he didn't even have that liberty with his lips completely at her mercy. With the fierceness that she showed right at this moment, he felt his cheeks heat up to a dangerous temperature, which was spreading to the rest of his body.

Caihong didn't wish to let go of him at all. It was such a beautiful surprise today that she wanted it to imprint in her memory. This feeling, bliss and relief that overwhelmed her heart; she wanted to express it all in this moment.

They parted out breathlessly. Xiaosi was in a daze, wrapping his head around his wife's passionate kiss. But he couldn't think for much longer when she kissed him again, this time darting her tongue inside his mouth. He clenched his fist. The nerves popped on the back of his hand, wanting to just push her on the bed and eat his wife.

Holding onto his desire, he shut his eyes, letting his wife dominate him in his entirety.

When Caihong was finally satisfied and tired herself was when she let him go. She buried her face in his chest and cried out.

"You…you are horrible. First you get an a-attack that almost killed you, and you lost your memories…Then you were in such a terrible accident that again threatened your life. Just how many times will you trouble me like this?" Her sobbed muffled voice was heartbreaking.

She now realized that she was at the end of her patience. She had been tethering herself somehow to the hope of Xiaosi waking but every passing day had only diminished her hope. She truly wondered how long would she have to wait?

Will she not be able to raise Chyou together with him?

Will she have to bear the responsibilities of S3 CEO all alone?

Will the years just pass like that with her talking to him as he slept forever?

Will she…never get Xiaosi back?

Was that her punishment for losing out on seven years with him and hating him even though he was innocent?

If that was the case, then she wanted to accept this punishment for her cruelty towards him. But she became selfish. She wanted Xiaosi.

The few months that she spent with him after his last attack were the most precious moments for her. She was finally living the married life she had always desired. She had a husband who loved her so deeply.

Shy, awkward, cute but fiercely protective…she had grown fond of him. Living together with him and Chyou as a family was as if her life had been fulfilled.

If only these days continued forever…

But she was on the brink of losing her happiness once again.

Caihong wailed like a little child. She hugged him hard as if she would never him disappear anymore.

"Please don't do this again…You have no idea how Chyou and I spent these months without you," she gasped.

"I cannot live without you, Xiaosi. I cannot raise Chyou without you. I don't want to live all by myself. I don't want to be alone. So please…don't leave me again like this…You don't understand just how much I love you."

Xiaosi remained in a stupor. His eyes were wet that were unable to hold onto his tears. His hand trembled as he touched her back.

Words failed to escape his mouth. His voice choked whenever he tried to speak.

"...I…I am sorry."

Caihong cried harder. She clutched onto him. "I won't forgive you e-easily this time! I will punish you so badly that you would never think of leaving me like this!"

His eyelids fluttered.

"Even today…it felt like I was dreaming. I would come back and you would be asleep. You waking up was all my illusion. I was so terrifiied, do you know?"

Caihong sniffled and slowly raised her head. Their gazes locked. Xiaosi gently tucked a lock of her hair behind her ear. She felt the warmth of his palm and had an urge to cry again.

Her voice was soft as she whispered, "I am serious. Don't do this again, okay? You promised we would go on a family trip together. But you…I don't know what to do with you."

He faintly smiled. "I am really sorry…"

Xiaosi really didn't know what to say apart from apologizing to her. He could the bags under her eyes and her skin that had turned pale. It said how she didn't have decent sleep and appetite.

The responsibilities of being the CEO and then the worry for comatose husband in the hospital along with taking care of Chyou were dropped onto her shoulders like a huge mountain.

Caihong was tired.

Seeing her like that, Xiaosi's heart ached. He wished he could go back in time and prevent that accident from happening. Then she wouldn't have had to suffer through all this. The smile from her lips wouldn't have vanished like that.

He softly bumped his forehead on hers. "I am really sorry, Caihong. I…don't know what to say anymore."

"Just promise me that you won't leave me alone like this, and I might forgive you."

He chuckled. "Might?"

"My heart is too hurt for me to forgive you so easily," she harrumphed. "Just promise me right now."