Chapter 398: 398 Know Yourself
Chapter 398
He stood up, lowered his head, and saw his own wrinkled clothes with a lingering unpleasant smell on him.
Pei JianGuo felt disgusted and went to take a shower. When he came back to the room, he realized Liu Chunhua was not there.
He panicked for a moment, hurriedly put on his clothes and went out, only to see Liu Chunhua walking in with breakfast.
"You're done with your shower. I made breakfast. Eat something," Liu Chunhua said with red eyes and a slightly weak, hoarse voice. She looked pitiful.
Pei JianGuo also felt he was being unreasonable.
He avoided her gaze awkwardly and took the initiative to help bring the dishes. "Don't busy yourself. Sit down and eat first. I'll go ask for leave from work after this. Wait for me at home."
They both knew clearly what he was asking leave for.
Liu Chunhua did not speak and lowered her head sitting at the table. Pei JianGuo looked at her and was still determined.
The two ate breakfast in silence. Neither took the initiative to speak and Liu Chunhua did not beg anymore.
Pei JianGuo thought she had given up and tidied himself up, pushing his bike out.
He rode fast all the way, half panicking and half venting his frustration.
He was doing well at work recently so it was easy for him to ask for leave.
But when he returned home, Liu Chunhua was nowhere to be seen.
In the room, two of her outfits were missing. A small part of the money at home had been taken, while most was still kept in its original place.
Initially, Pei JianGuo was the one keeping all the money at home. He only gave her some living expenses every month. It was just last year that he felt he could really spend his whole life with this woman, so he had become more lenient.
Since they did not have children, to reassure her, he kept half his salary to himself and gave the other half to Liu Chunhua.
Anyway, she did not know exactly how much he earned, and thought that was all he had, fully trusting him.
But who would have expected this to happen this year.
Pei JianGuo leaned powerlessly against the cabinet door, feeling extremely helpless.
As usual, Pei Yong made breakfast early in the morning and PingAn was sitting at the table early.
After eating, PingAn shouldered his schoolbag to go to school while Pei Yong tidied up, also about to head out.
Unexpectedly, Liu Chunhua suddenly barged in from outside with a small bundle on her back. She knelt on the ground begging for help, "Dad, please save me. Please save your grandson. I'm begging you. You're the only one who can save me now..."
Regarding this daughter-in-law, Pei Yong made no comment. He had told Pei JianGuo long ago that he would no longer meddle in his matters.
If Liu Chunhua wanted to visit, Pei Yong would not drive her out. If she said she did not want to come, Pei Yong would not force her.
After all, he alone had limited ability. It was already difficult enough for him to raise PingAn, and he really could not spare any more effort to manage other things, let alone someone's whole life.
Although he spoke like this, seeing Liu Chunhua run in and kneel before him still gave Pei Yong a headache.
"Stop crying first and get up to sit down. Speak properly." Pei Yong felt he really could not handle women, no matter what kind.
The troublesomeness of Wang Yue had plagued him for the first half of his life. He admired Guo MoMo's independence and strength, but this weak and incompetent type like Liu Chunhua made his scalp tingle.
Following his words, Liu Chunhua got up sniffling and sat on a stool nearby.
After hearing her explain the reason behind this, Pei Yong lowered his head in silence for a long time.
In the end, he could only steel his heart and sigh helplessly, "I remember when you first visited me after getting married, I had told you that my son was not someone who could live a proper life. His previous two marriages did not go well either, so I asked you to consider carefully before making a decision."
He still remembered how ugly Pei JianGuo's expression was when he said those words.
But still, he had to make things clear to avoid harming the young lady.
Pei Yong also remembered Liu Chunhua's reply at that time. "I like JianGuo and I'm confident I can have a good life with him. His past was not kept from me either. I knew about it, but I believe that was not his fault."
Shit tastes terrible but she insisted it was fragrant. Pei Yong could not do anything about it.
"Dad..." Pei Yong's words clearly shocked Liu Chunhua. Tears rolled down her cheeks as she pleaded, "You can't just ignore this. I'm begging you. The child in my belly is your grandson too. You've raised PingAn for so many years. You can't be biased now. I'm only asking you to save him, to let me keep this child. I promise I won't cause you any trouble..."
If promises were useful, Pei Yong felt his life would not have turned out like this.
Moreover, one had to bear the consequences of one's own choices.
He had advised against it but no one listened. He was helpless too.
If he could choose again, he would rather have betrayed them. Even if everyone condemned him, at least he would be by himself for life.
Parenting was not easy. It was wrong to meddle and also wrong not to.
He could not even meddle properly. His son might still resent him saying, you knew clearly I was wrong then, why didn't you beat me? Why didn't you tie me up? You just watched as I lived like this, yet you blame me now for not listening to you back then?
Would he not have resented it if Pei Yong really beat or tied him up?
He still would have.
Some people never blamed themselves, feeling it was always other people's fault. So meddling or not was always wrong.
Now Pei Yong was more open-minded. He willingly took PingAn on himself and the boy was clever and sensible without his father's flaws. He was willing to raise PingAn.
As for other things, like he said, he really could not manage them and did not want to either.
Liu Chunhua wept there. Pei Yong also could not leave her alone at home. He could only sit there listening to her cry.
This was the scene Pei JianGuo saw when he arrived.
Liu Chunhua sobbed sorrowfully while Pei Yong sat across from her, staring blankly at the main entrance.
He seemed to know Pei JianGuo would come. Upon seeing him, Pei Yong simply stood up and said, "Since you're here, discuss your matters between yourselves. I have to go to work. I'm late already."
Pei Yong walked past Pei JianGuo calmly, leaving him feeling dejected.
At this moment, how Pei JianGuo hoped he would scold or even hit him!
But the reality was he truly did not want to meddle anymore. He was not joking or scaring him.
Perhaps he had disappointed him too much.
Only the two of them were left in the house. Liu Chunhua was even more nervous seeing Pei JianGuo who had rushed here. Her eyes were badly swollen from crying.
Pei JianGuo did not urge her and just sat beside her silently. The two confronted each other this way.
Liu Chunhua had to concede. Covering her belly with one hand, she said, "I'm sorry, really sorry. I didn't mean to either but I just can't bear to... JianGuo..."
"I thought we were clear initially. Chunhua, I'm the one who's too selfish. After having a son, I shouldn't deprive you of the right to be a mother either. If you really want a child, then go. I'll give you all the money at home, as compensation, for Pei JianGuo wronging you."
After Gao Qingcheng, he did not have much desire for women anymore. Marrying Liu Chunhua was something he had to do back then.
He could live with her but when it came to having children, he felt he could not shoulder that responsibility and was honestly afraid again.
Although he lived muddledly, harming himself and others, harming children was the one thing he refused to do.
If he could not raise a child properly, it was better not to have any, lest the child grew up to become someone like him.